Agh, the past couple of weeks have been so crazy. Most of it's been good though, which is nice. The bad days have been really bad though, like most of them are with me. I don't usually have just "okay" days. It's either really great, good, or terrible. Last Saturday and Sunday were terrible, Wednesday was terrible. And the problem with terrible days are that you keep thinking about them even though you have a good day. You can never go back and do them over, they're just always there. All three of my bad days were the result of my own stupid-ness so that makes it even harder. I'm sick of screwing things up, but I'm to lazy to change anything.
We have this whole next week off from school, which is the greatest thing ever. I got to go home early from school on Friday, and then hung out with my mom, then hung out with Kara, Alex, Cody, and Lynn for the rest of it. Today was nice too. I hung out with just Kara, which I like doing a lot.
My computer crashed with all my music and pictures and everything on it, so I have to use my dad's for stuff. It doesn't have flashplayer so I can't listen to music or anything. He blocked the site, I guess, so it won't install. It really bugs me.
I don't know who I support for president. Unlike most teenagers in America, I don't really like Barack Obama. I think he's a show-off and can't deliver all the promises he's making. Like, no taxes? I don't think so. He is the better of the two candidates though. I really don't like McCain.
I'm glad I'm not super sad like I was a while ago though. I go through a lot of periods when I'm just really sad and hate everything, but I'm not. I'm just like, wistful I guess. I need to stop thinking so much. It only gets me in trouble.
I hope tomorrow is really good. I want to do something really amazing and different,
but I can't think of anything because this island is so 'effing boring. I need some suggestions.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Let it flow like a mud slide.
I'm gonna start this entry now, but I don't think I'm gonna finish it. I have homework to do and I want to talk on the phone with Kara tonight. Today is our 9 month anniversary! I don't think anyone realizes how much I love this girl. I know I talk about it all the time, so I won't talk about it too much more. I'm just so glad we've made it this far, but it's not like it's that big of a challenge. She's the greatest and I love her :)
The past two days have been weird. They were great, and then really bad, and then good, then bad again. And this is all in the matter of a couple hours. Last night I got all upset because Kara was upset. Her and her mom haven't been getting along. Then my mom and I got into a fight because I didn't get off the phone when she told me to. When I woke up, everything just hit me again and I started crying because I just want my life to straighten out again. Some people like their lives to be exciting and different every day, and that's nice and all, but I feel like I have to much to do. Like, there's a difference between disorganized and different. I like different, not disorganized. After my grandma died, I got to school and found that I have a ton of homework and tests to make up, and grades close on Friday for the first semester. I'm pretty sure I'm failing at least 1 class. Then theres that awful musical my parents forced me to be in. It looks so dumb and I don't know any of the steps they went over when I was gone. I feel like an idiot. I feel really pressured all the time and on top of it all, my mom threw a little bitch fit about how I couldn't escort Kara on Homecoming since Kara's on Homecoming court. She was like "Why don't you just get a billboard, Catie?!?". I mean, god forbid any of her friends find out and she doesn't get invited to those luncheons anymore! Jeez. I got so upset. I was so excited to escort her, and my mom says I can't do it the day before it happens. Whata whore.
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Okay. Now it's Friday. I told you I wouldn't finish this entry.
Today was good for the most part. School was good, after school was very good, and the football game was not good. Street Meet afterwards was nice though. I liked everyone I was with.
School was good because I really didn't do anything. Then after school was good because I spent it with Kara and Blake, who my mom is letting me drive with again. The football game was bad because I started thinking about my mom and my old friends right in the middle of it. I didn't get to be with Kara much because she was doing homecoming stuff, so I just stood awkwardly around people I used to hang out with. I wish I stil hung out with them though. I don't really have many friends anymore.
Anyway, I was reallly looking forward to escorting Kara and being there at the game reminded me about how much of a bitch my mom can really be. I dunno, it's been showing a lot over the past couple of days. It bums me out.
Another thing that bums me out is friends. I don't have friends anymore. Even the one I had left after everything this summer isn't really there anymore. I just don't feel close to anyone but my girlfriend. I don't want to put that kinda pressure on her; that she needs to listen to me vent and whine but still be a girlfriend. I don't know how to explain it, but I just feel bad. I'm so so so glad that we're that close and that I can tell her anything, but I've always had a best friend. Like, separate from who I was dating. Whatever. It's just sad. Maybe thats the way it's supposed to be, but I've always had a big group of friends. Ever since around summer or the end of school last year, everything's kind of fallen apart. The game really got me thinking about it.
I don't really care right now because the night ended on a good note. That's all I really care about. I don't like going home unhappy. I have a tonnnnn on my mind right now. My mom, Kara, today, old friends, the way I look, everything I have to do; just random stuff. I hate it.
I'm gonna end this now though. I'm over it.
<3
The past two days have been weird. They were great, and then really bad, and then good, then bad again. And this is all in the matter of a couple hours. Last night I got all upset because Kara was upset. Her and her mom haven't been getting along. Then my mom and I got into a fight because I didn't get off the phone when she told me to. When I woke up, everything just hit me again and I started crying because I just want my life to straighten out again. Some people like their lives to be exciting and different every day, and that's nice and all, but I feel like I have to much to do. Like, there's a difference between disorganized and different. I like different, not disorganized. After my grandma died, I got to school and found that I have a ton of homework and tests to make up, and grades close on Friday for the first semester. I'm pretty sure I'm failing at least 1 class. Then theres that awful musical my parents forced me to be in. It looks so dumb and I don't know any of the steps they went over when I was gone. I feel like an idiot. I feel really pressured all the time and on top of it all, my mom threw a little bitch fit about how I couldn't escort Kara on Homecoming since Kara's on Homecoming court. She was like "Why don't you just get a billboard, Catie?!?". I mean, god forbid any of her friends find out and she doesn't get invited to those luncheons anymore! Jeez. I got so upset. I was so excited to escort her, and my mom says I can't do it the day before it happens. Whata whore.
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Okay. Now it's Friday. I told you I wouldn't finish this entry.
Today was good for the most part. School was good, after school was very good, and the football game was not good. Street Meet afterwards was nice though. I liked everyone I was with.
School was good because I really didn't do anything. Then after school was good because I spent it with Kara and Blake, who my mom is letting me drive with again. The football game was bad because I started thinking about my mom and my old friends right in the middle of it. I didn't get to be with Kara much because she was doing homecoming stuff, so I just stood awkwardly around people I used to hang out with. I wish I stil hung out with them though. I don't really have many friends anymore.
Anyway, I was reallly looking forward to escorting Kara and being there at the game reminded me about how much of a bitch my mom can really be. I dunno, it's been showing a lot over the past couple of days. It bums me out.
Another thing that bums me out is friends. I don't have friends anymore. Even the one I had left after everything this summer isn't really there anymore. I just don't feel close to anyone but my girlfriend. I don't want to put that kinda pressure on her; that she needs to listen to me vent and whine but still be a girlfriend. I don't know how to explain it, but I just feel bad. I'm so so so glad that we're that close and that I can tell her anything, but I've always had a best friend. Like, separate from who I was dating. Whatever. It's just sad. Maybe thats the way it's supposed to be, but I've always had a big group of friends. Ever since around summer or the end of school last year, everything's kind of fallen apart. The game really got me thinking about it.
I don't really care right now because the night ended on a good note. That's all I really care about. I don't like going home unhappy. I have a tonnnnn on my mind right now. My mom, Kara, today, old friends, the way I look, everything I have to do; just random stuff. I hate it.
I'm gonna end this now though. I'm over it.
<3
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Hey girl, you've got a smart way about you that makes me wish that I was smart enough for you.
Gosh almighty, it's been a long time since I've posted anything on here. Right now it's 8:23am on Saturday, and I'm supposed to be getting ready for a soccer game. I'm really tired. I didn't get to bed until 11 last night because my best friend didn't drop me off until 10:15.
Yesterday was really interesting. Actually, this whole last week was interesting. It was amazing though, and I'm so glad things are good again. I was grounded last weekend and the weekend before, so I told myself that I wouldn't be again. So, now I'm not.
Monday was okay, I don't really remember if anything exciting happened. Tuesday after school, I went to Kara's house, and we hung out there. That's always fun. Wednesday I was supposed to have a soccer game but I was really tired, so my mom let me skip. That was nice because she doesn't let me do that much. I don't know, it just kinda shows that she trusts me again, which I really really want.
Thursday after school, I went to Kara's house again. I usually go over there when my mom can't pick me up after play practice because Kara lives so close to the school. Thursday was different then Tuesday, and I liked it better. We talked and joked around a lot which I love doing. She's one of the only people on this planet that I can laugh with for real. I don't know if that makes sense, but she understands my weird sense of humor, and I don't feel like I'm faking it when I'm laughing with her. Like, sometimes I laugh at people to be polite, but not with Kara. She's hilarious and I love it.
Yesterday was the best day of them all. After play practice, Kara and I got picked up by Cody and Alex. They're amazing and so much fun to hang out with, I just feel bad because I started feeling really sick in the middle of it. I slept in the car for a majority of the time, haha. It was so weird. It felt like I had a fever and I was all clammy and sweaty, but after I slept for a while, I was okay. Cody had to be home, so he dropped Kara and I off at Kara's house. We hung out there for a while with her mom, but then we walked to a playground near the school. That was fun. We just talked and walked and argued about who loved each other more. I know that sounds really stupid and annoying, but it's the sweetest thing when she does that. She's still wrong though; she'll never love me more then I love her :)
So, my mom picked me up around 8 and when I got home, my mom and I went to a prayer party at a nun's house! That's right. We didn't stay for long because we were only there to pick up my little sister and her friend. But still, I was inside a nun's house, and it was strangely normal looking.
The nun's live right down the street from me, so as we were there Melanie sped by to pick me up at my house. I ran down the street, and from there Melanie, Davis, Anna, and I went to Mi Tierras for dinner. That was a lot of fun, but Davis kept causing problems. He got sour cream and silly string in Anna's hair, and he was screaming in a high-pitched voice the whole time. I guess that's just Davis though, and he's a pretty interesting kid to hang out with. I have a bruise-scar thing on my hip because he went up and bit it when he was tying his shoe in Wal-Mart. It hurt sooo bad and I was really angry with him.
Today I have that soccer game and my mom's making me do my homework when I get home before I do anything. I hope I can hang out with Melanie and Kara today since it's my first time not being grounded in 3 weeks. I'm definitely digging this weekend so far, so I hope it's a good one :D
I'm so glad that something like friends can cheer me up like this. I was feeling so shitty a while ago, but being ungrounded and having a good time with my friends has done so much. It just really makes me appreciate that they're in my life.
My great-grandma died yesterday morning, so I'm not going to be here Wednesday, Thursday, or Friday for the funeral.
I'm pretty upset because she's the 2nd person that's died and I've actually known and been with for a significant amount of time. It's not like your random uncle you've never met, even though that sounds mean. At least she's not sick anymore, I guess.
I'll probably write when I get back :)
Yesterday was really interesting. Actually, this whole last week was interesting. It was amazing though, and I'm so glad things are good again. I was grounded last weekend and the weekend before, so I told myself that I wouldn't be again. So, now I'm not.
Monday was okay, I don't really remember if anything exciting happened. Tuesday after school, I went to Kara's house, and we hung out there. That's always fun. Wednesday I was supposed to have a soccer game but I was really tired, so my mom let me skip. That was nice because she doesn't let me do that much. I don't know, it just kinda shows that she trusts me again, which I really really want.
Thursday after school, I went to Kara's house again. I usually go over there when my mom can't pick me up after play practice because Kara lives so close to the school. Thursday was different then Tuesday, and I liked it better. We talked and joked around a lot which I love doing. She's one of the only people on this planet that I can laugh with for real. I don't know if that makes sense, but she understands my weird sense of humor, and I don't feel like I'm faking it when I'm laughing with her. Like, sometimes I laugh at people to be polite, but not with Kara. She's hilarious and I love it.
Yesterday was the best day of them all. After play practice, Kara and I got picked up by Cody and Alex. They're amazing and so much fun to hang out with, I just feel bad because I started feeling really sick in the middle of it. I slept in the car for a majority of the time, haha. It was so weird. It felt like I had a fever and I was all clammy and sweaty, but after I slept for a while, I was okay. Cody had to be home, so he dropped Kara and I off at Kara's house. We hung out there for a while with her mom, but then we walked to a playground near the school. That was fun. We just talked and walked and argued about who loved each other more. I know that sounds really stupid and annoying, but it's the sweetest thing when she does that. She's still wrong though; she'll never love me more then I love her :)
So, my mom picked me up around 8 and when I got home, my mom and I went to a prayer party at a nun's house! That's right. We didn't stay for long because we were only there to pick up my little sister and her friend. But still, I was inside a nun's house, and it was strangely normal looking.
The nun's live right down the street from me, so as we were there Melanie sped by to pick me up at my house. I ran down the street, and from there Melanie, Davis, Anna, and I went to Mi Tierras for dinner. That was a lot of fun, but Davis kept causing problems. He got sour cream and silly string in Anna's hair, and he was screaming in a high-pitched voice the whole time. I guess that's just Davis though, and he's a pretty interesting kid to hang out with. I have a bruise-scar thing on my hip because he went up and bit it when he was tying his shoe in Wal-Mart. It hurt sooo bad and I was really angry with him.
Today I have that soccer game and my mom's making me do my homework when I get home before I do anything. I hope I can hang out with Melanie and Kara today since it's my first time not being grounded in 3 weeks. I'm definitely digging this weekend so far, so I hope it's a good one :D
I'm so glad that something like friends can cheer me up like this. I was feeling so shitty a while ago, but being ungrounded and having a good time with my friends has done so much. It just really makes me appreciate that they're in my life.
My great-grandma died yesterday morning, so I'm not going to be here Wednesday, Thursday, or Friday for the funeral.
I'm pretty upset because she's the 2nd person that's died and I've actually known and been with for a significant amount of time. It's not like your random uncle you've never met, even though that sounds mean. At least she's not sick anymore, I guess.
I'll probably write when I get back :)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
And I keep drinkin' coffee cause my thoughts stay clear when things start to spin.
Well, it's been an interesting past couple of days. The flag thing is pretty much over. My mom and dad are talking again, and my mom's not mad at me for it anymore. I forgot my homework for Chemisty on Tuesday though, so I'm grounded for that. I really really hate being grounded. I hate that my parents have that kind of control over me. I missed one homework assignment and next thing you know, I'm stuck at home, forced to do everything my mom says. Now I remember why I hate being home so much. I'm usually out every weekend, so this is the first time I've been home in a while. Whatever. I'm just jealous of everyone who's out doing something right now. I want to be out there with them.
I had a nice talk with my best friend yesterday about what being "okay" really means. She was saying how people can act like nothing's bothering them, but nothing can ever really be completely okay. Like, how do you know when everything is really "okay"? Is it when you're completely, 100% happy with everything in your life? Is that even possible? I've realized that now more then ever. People bottle up stuff and never talk about their problems, but then it just gets worse and worse. Things can be "okay" in different ways though. Like, if you stop being friends with someone or something, it might not seem "okay", but it might turn out to be. You might've stopped being friends with that person because they're not as good of a friend as you thought. I know that good things always come out of bad situations, it just takes time and effort. I just wish people wouldn't let it just sit there and build up though. I know that's easier said then done, but I hope they know that I'm always here to talk to. If something isn't okay, I know I like talking about it with other people. Maybe it's not what anyone else likes to do, but letting it sit there and get bigger and bigger doesn't do a damn thing. I want people to count on me and stuff. Or I just want them to cheer up and try to see the good in things again.
I've been having this weird feeling lately, like something bad is about to happen. I get it sometimes when drama breaks out or...I don't know. It's a sinking feeling like you're on the edge of tears and your head feels heavy, and you don't feel like thinking about anything. I just hope it's nothing too disastrous, but maybe it's just me. I just don't feel good.
Kara's over her cold, which is good. I've had Footloose practice every day since it started, and it's cool because I usually get to see Kara before and after. I just love spending time with her so much. Someone asked me today if we're gonna get married :P I thought that was funny. We had our 8 month anniversary last Tuesday and she made me a really good CD. I made her one too, and she said she liked it.
I know it's really early, but I want to go to prom this year,
and I already have my dress picked out.
I don't know yet though, so I might change my mind. I'm such a loser when it comes to planning big things. I always figure it out wayyy ahead of time. I guess I need to see what my date is wearing to decide (:
Oh, and apparently Travis Barker and DJ AM were in a fatal plane crash in South Carolina, and they're both in critical condition.
How sad :(
The weather is soooo nice outside, so I think I'm gonna go do something besides sit on the computer.
Melanie's supposed to be over in a couple minutes. I'll write more later!
I had a nice talk with my best friend yesterday about what being "okay" really means. She was saying how people can act like nothing's bothering them, but nothing can ever really be completely okay. Like, how do you know when everything is really "okay"? Is it when you're completely, 100% happy with everything in your life? Is that even possible? I've realized that now more then ever. People bottle up stuff and never talk about their problems, but then it just gets worse and worse. Things can be "okay" in different ways though. Like, if you stop being friends with someone or something, it might not seem "okay", but it might turn out to be. You might've stopped being friends with that person because they're not as good of a friend as you thought. I know that good things always come out of bad situations, it just takes time and effort. I just wish people wouldn't let it just sit there and build up though. I know that's easier said then done, but I hope they know that I'm always here to talk to. If something isn't okay, I know I like talking about it with other people. Maybe it's not what anyone else likes to do, but letting it sit there and get bigger and bigger doesn't do a damn thing. I want people to count on me and stuff. Or I just want them to cheer up and try to see the good in things again.
I've been having this weird feeling lately, like something bad is about to happen. I get it sometimes when drama breaks out or...I don't know. It's a sinking feeling like you're on the edge of tears and your head feels heavy, and you don't feel like thinking about anything. I just hope it's nothing too disastrous, but maybe it's just me. I just don't feel good.
Kara's over her cold, which is good. I've had Footloose practice every day since it started, and it's cool because I usually get to see Kara before and after. I just love spending time with her so much. Someone asked me today if we're gonna get married :P I thought that was funny. We had our 8 month anniversary last Tuesday and she made me a really good CD. I made her one too, and she said she liked it.
I know it's really early, but I want to go to prom this year,
and I already have my dress picked out.
I don't know yet though, so I might change my mind. I'm such a loser when it comes to planning big things. I always figure it out wayyy ahead of time. I guess I need to see what my date is wearing to decide (:
Oh, and apparently Travis Barker and DJ AM were in a fatal plane crash in South Carolina, and they're both in critical condition.
How sad :(
The weather is soooo nice outside, so I think I'm gonna go do something besides sit on the computer.
Melanie's supposed to be over in a couple minutes. I'll write more later!
Sunday, September 7, 2008
You can't tell me it's not worth dying for you, you know it's true. Everything I do, I do it for you.
I'm in a pretty good mood today considering everything that's happened since I last wrote on here. On Sunday when Terry and Blake came over, I let Terry have this old, ratty flag on the front porch. He wanted it to burn or something, so I just said "yeah" because it was useless anyway. Well, apparently my mom didn't think it was. She jacked it from her grandma's house a while ago, so she flipped out when she noticed it was gone. I took the blame for everything, and it finally got dropped. I figured everything was fine by Monday because my mom was being so nice. It turns out the only reason she was being nice is because she called Terry's mom when I was at school. I think it was to tattle on him or get some vengeance from it or something. I don't really know.
When I found out she called Terry's mom, I got so angry. We had this huge screaming fight over it, and my dad finally stepped in to stick up for me. I didn't understand why she thought she needed to get one of my friends in trouble for something he didn't even know was wrong. I took the blame and everything and she seemed okay with it all, but she still had to make a big deal out of it. She called Terry's mom who was like "I can get one to replace it...we're so sorry...blah blah blah", but no. My mom wanted to take it further and get them to fish it out of the dump or something. Terry's mom said he and I can't hang out anymore because I was a bad influence, but that's just what my mom said. I don't believe what she says anymore.
So Tuesday my dad drove me to school, and while I was there, my parents talked and she wants us out of the house. She said I'm 17 now and I need to find somewhere else to live, and she wants to get a lawyer to get my dad out. It's Wednesday now though, and she doesn't seem to be doing anything about it. My dad and I just stay out of the house for as long as we can, come home and sleep, then get out of the house by 7 in the morning. She's not here now.
I think the whole situation was blown way out of proportion. It was a stupid flag that she stole from her grandmother, and I didn't even know that before I gave it to Terry. Whatever. I said I was sorry.
Everything's been okay besides that though.
School's fun.
Kara still has a cold, which I'm waiting impatiently for her to get over.
I had my first Footloose rehearsal today and it was super fun.
I don't know what to think about my life right now. I'm just glad things aren't all completely falling apart. I have a few good friends I know I can count on, and that makes everything good.
I got a buncha money from my grandparents for my birthday yesterday. I can't wait to go shoppingggggg ;D
and the rest I'm putting away for a car.
Oh, and wtf is with that black hole thing in Switzerland?! I don't want to die!
If you don't know what I'm talking about, read this:
http://dsc.discovery.com/news/2008/09/10/black-hole-cern.html
I guess I'll get started on my homework now. Bye!
<3
When I found out she called Terry's mom, I got so angry. We had this huge screaming fight over it, and my dad finally stepped in to stick up for me. I didn't understand why she thought she needed to get one of my friends in trouble for something he didn't even know was wrong. I took the blame and everything and she seemed okay with it all, but she still had to make a big deal out of it. She called Terry's mom who was like "I can get one to replace it...we're so sorry...blah blah blah", but no. My mom wanted to take it further and get them to fish it out of the dump or something. Terry's mom said he and I can't hang out anymore because I was a bad influence, but that's just what my mom said. I don't believe what she says anymore.
So Tuesday my dad drove me to school, and while I was there, my parents talked and she wants us out of the house. She said I'm 17 now and I need to find somewhere else to live, and she wants to get a lawyer to get my dad out. It's Wednesday now though, and she doesn't seem to be doing anything about it. My dad and I just stay out of the house for as long as we can, come home and sleep, then get out of the house by 7 in the morning. She's not here now.
I think the whole situation was blown way out of proportion. It was a stupid flag that she stole from her grandmother, and I didn't even know that before I gave it to Terry. Whatever. I said I was sorry.
Everything's been okay besides that though.
School's fun.
Kara still has a cold, which I'm waiting impatiently for her to get over.
I had my first Footloose rehearsal today and it was super fun.
I don't know what to think about my life right now. I'm just glad things aren't all completely falling apart. I have a few good friends I know I can count on, and that makes everything good.
I got a buncha money from my grandparents for my birthday yesterday. I can't wait to go shoppingggggg ;D
and the rest I'm putting away for a car.
Oh, and wtf is with that black hole thing in Switzerland?! I don't want to die!
If you don't know what I'm talking about, read this:
http://dsc.discovery.com/news/2008/09/10/black-hole-cern.html
I guess I'll get started on my homework now. Bye!
<3
If I could express it in a different dialect or in a delicate way, I'd capture the phrases inside the cage beneath my chest.
So, this weekend was definitely not as good as last week. It seems like it would be one of the worst I've had in a long time, but I'm actually not that upset. A lot happened since Friday, which we had off of school for the hurricane.
I kinda got into a fight with a friend, and that got me pretty angry. I wasn't in that good of a mood to begin with and on top of that, my mom wouldn't let me go outside. Nothing ended up happening though. The hurricane completely missed us.
Saturday was nice. I had a soccer game that we won, but it was maddddd hot outside. Afterwards, I went over to Kara's house, but we weren't there very long because her mom was coming, and it's always weird being there with her mom. From there, we walked to Main Street, then to the Walgreen's, Barnes & Noble, Dollar Store, and Wal-Mart area. It was fun just walking around with her. We seem to do that a lot, but I always like it. Kara got sick when we were in Wal-Mart though, the poor thing. But her voice sounds so cute when she's sick! I hope she gets better soon.
Today was pretty lame. I woke up, and I wasn't even awake for 5 minutes before my parents decided to scream at me for stuff that never happened. They think I don't ever do my homework, which isn't true. A couple days ago, they made me try out for this musical at my school because I have "such a talent" that I "shouldn't let go to waste". They're convinced that i skipped out on the auditions and lied about the whole thing. I don't care that they don't believe me, because I did and they'll see that when I get call-backs, but just how they yell at me. It's like I'm 12 again, and it ticks me off.
I'm not all like ohh, I'm 17 now. I'm an adult, but seriously. They talk to me like I'm a kid. I told my dad he was acting like a jerk, and he said he was gonna "slap that look off my face". Who says that? I know he would never ever hit me, but he's threatening it like it actually means something to me. They get so worked up over the stupidest things, and it's so unnecessary.
Anyway, Kara and Alex came over for a Drama project we had to do. Then Terry and Blake stopped over, and even though they couldn't stay, it made me happy. I love my friends.
Whatever. I guess the truth will come out and my parents will trust me again,
but I want things to get better like they were a week ago. Life has so many ups and downs, and I can't stand it.
I feel like dying my hair or something.
Hm.
Watch this video:
I kinda got into a fight with a friend, and that got me pretty angry. I wasn't in that good of a mood to begin with and on top of that, my mom wouldn't let me go outside. Nothing ended up happening though. The hurricane completely missed us.
Saturday was nice. I had a soccer game that we won, but it was maddddd hot outside. Afterwards, I went over to Kara's house, but we weren't there very long because her mom was coming, and it's always weird being there with her mom. From there, we walked to Main Street, then to the Walgreen's, Barnes & Noble, Dollar Store, and Wal-Mart area. It was fun just walking around with her. We seem to do that a lot, but I always like it. Kara got sick when we were in Wal-Mart though, the poor thing. But her voice sounds so cute when she's sick! I hope she gets better soon.
Today was pretty lame. I woke up, and I wasn't even awake for 5 minutes before my parents decided to scream at me for stuff that never happened. They think I don't ever do my homework, which isn't true. A couple days ago, they made me try out for this musical at my school because I have "such a talent" that I "shouldn't let go to waste". They're convinced that i skipped out on the auditions and lied about the whole thing. I don't care that they don't believe me, because I did and they'll see that when I get call-backs, but just how they yell at me. It's like I'm 12 again, and it ticks me off.
I'm not all like ohh, I'm 17 now. I'm an adult, but seriously. They talk to me like I'm a kid. I told my dad he was acting like a jerk, and he said he was gonna "slap that look off my face". Who says that? I know he would never ever hit me, but he's threatening it like it actually means something to me. They get so worked up over the stupidest things, and it's so unnecessary.
Anyway, Kara and Alex came over for a Drama project we had to do. Then Terry and Blake stopped over, and even though they couldn't stay, it made me happy. I love my friends.
Whatever. I guess the truth will come out and my parents will trust me again,
but I want things to get better like they were a week ago. Life has so many ups and downs, and I can't stand it.
I feel like dying my hair or something.
Hm.
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Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Ramble on, and now's the time; the time is now to sing my song.
Today's my birthdayyyyyy!
I know it's lame to be sitting here writing a blog on the day of my birth, but we had school today and stuff and I'm not allowed to go downstairs because my family's decorating or icing the cake or something.
I've cheered up a lot from my last post. Things are way better and looking back, it was pretty stupid writing about how sucky life was before. It wasn't the end of the world, and I'm definitely not worrying about what I was then.
We just came off a long 4-day weekend, and I couldn't be happier. So much happened and I had fun every single day. I saw Melanie and Kara most of the time, and I loooove those girls. I won't go into huge detail, but I had a blast. If this weekend is even just half as great, I would be completely happy.
I don't know if whoever is reading this knows it, but there's a huge hurricane coming my way. People are talking about evacuating and stuff, but school hasn't been called off, so nothing's definite. I know a lot of people who are leaving tonight though, and my parents were talking about leaving Thursday (tomorrow). We aren't anymore though 'cuz I guess it's turned into a tropical storm that's going to hit north of us around Saturday. Still though, that's pretty scary stuff. What if we evacuated but when we got back, everything was gone! AND I HAD TO MOVE AWAY AND NEVER SAW ANYONE AGAIN! Ha, I'm really glad it's not that big of a deal anymore. I don't want to move.
Yesterday my mom took me to see a house she was thinking about buying in the town over from us. I don't want to move there either. I like where I live and the school I go to and the friends I have. Especially Kara. She spent the night on Monday, which is weird because my mom doesn't even let my friend Bridget spend the night. I'm still soo happy she did though. It was so nice. This weekend really made me realize how much I love her. I hope everyone can find a love like this in their lifetime. I know I'm young, but I'm crazy for this girl. It doesn't bother me if someone doesn't understand or care, but it's an amazing feeling. I'm just so happy :)
I guess I'll stop now because I can't think of anything else to write about and I have homework to do. I'm gonna sneak downstairs too because I really really want some Doritos.
<3
I know it's lame to be sitting here writing a blog on the day of my birth, but we had school today and stuff and I'm not allowed to go downstairs because my family's decorating or icing the cake or something.
I've cheered up a lot from my last post. Things are way better and looking back, it was pretty stupid writing about how sucky life was before. It wasn't the end of the world, and I'm definitely not worrying about what I was then.
We just came off a long 4-day weekend, and I couldn't be happier. So much happened and I had fun every single day. I saw Melanie and Kara most of the time, and I loooove those girls. I won't go into huge detail, but I had a blast. If this weekend is even just half as great, I would be completely happy.
I don't know if whoever is reading this knows it, but there's a huge hurricane coming my way. People are talking about evacuating and stuff, but school hasn't been called off, so nothing's definite. I know a lot of people who are leaving tonight though, and my parents were talking about leaving Thursday (tomorrow). We aren't anymore though 'cuz I guess it's turned into a tropical storm that's going to hit north of us around Saturday. Still though, that's pretty scary stuff. What if we evacuated but when we got back, everything was gone! AND I HAD TO MOVE AWAY AND NEVER SAW ANYONE AGAIN! Ha, I'm really glad it's not that big of a deal anymore. I don't want to move.
Yesterday my mom took me to see a house she was thinking about buying in the town over from us. I don't want to move there either. I like where I live and the school I go to and the friends I have. Especially Kara. She spent the night on Monday, which is weird because my mom doesn't even let my friend Bridget spend the night. I'm still soo happy she did though. It was so nice. This weekend really made me realize how much I love her. I hope everyone can find a love like this in their lifetime. I know I'm young, but I'm crazy for this girl. It doesn't bother me if someone doesn't understand or care, but it's an amazing feeling. I'm just so happy :)
I guess I'll stop now because I can't think of anything else to write about and I have homework to do. I'm gonna sneak downstairs too because I really really want some Doritos.
<3
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