There could be nothing better than making you my bride and slowly growing old together.

Hiiiii :)
I just got home from hanging out with Blake and my girlfriend. It's Wednesday of the 2nd week of school, and not too much has changed. I find myself starting to get upset over the littlest things though, and I don't know what to do.
There's someone I'm kinda friends with, and they've recently done something to make me angry. It wasn't that big of a deal, but now it's turned into this huge thing. I confided in one person and told them why I was upset, and suddenly everyone knows about it. They're making it seem like I completely hate this person. That's not true at all, I've calmed down since it's happened. Everyone talking about it makes me more and more upset though, and today, something was said that made me want to cry. For a while now, some people I hang out with have been saying how all their old friends have abandoned them and gone their seperate ways. Some of them have gotten really into drugs and stuff, and their old friends have been pretty upset over it. They always talk about how it used to be and everything they used to do, and how much they miss it. Especially someone I'm really close to. One of the reasons they've been upset lately is because they feel like they don't have a solid group of friends anymore.
So today we were in Subway when the person I "hate" came up, and someone said "Yes you do, Catie, you hate him. Now it's gonna be like February again," and February was when everyone started drifting apart. I feel like it's all my fault now, and I reallllly really don't want it to be. I feel so selfish and bitchy too, 'cuz everyone's been so emotional about that situation. I don't know if this is making any sense to you, but I feel like shit. It's been one thing after another, and I feel like everything's been falling apart. Like, I'm seriously ruining everything for everyone. I mentioned once that I was sick of going to Barnes and Noble everyday, and BAM! we don't go there anymore. I said someone was annoying me, and now they're annoying other people. And no ones the way they used to be, just because I had to open my big mouth and say something. It's completely my fault.
My girlfriend is never happy anymore and I try soo hard to cheer her up, but it's not as easy as it looks. I know we're both here for each other, but stuff like that doesn't just go away overnight. Other friends of mine are having problems too. Especially when SO MUCH is going on at once, I feel like I'm stuck in a hole.
I don't even know what else to say. I guess "theres only one way to go, and that's up" or whatever. I don't even know how that saying goes. I don't care though.

I might go lay down or something.
My birthday's in exactly a week :) that's something to look forward to.
Melanie wants to help me plan a dinner at Spice or somewhere. I don't know who I'd invite though :/

I'll write laterrrrrr.