Talking trash to the garbage around you.

I'm sick of liars and people who make things complicated.

And people who don't listen.

And people who stand in the way of what I want.

Maybe that makes me sound bitchy,
but I'm just really sick of it.

Don't fucking lie to me.

So my entry last night was really stupid. I wasn't really thinking right. There's been a lot of days when I've come home super happy. Maybe it was one of those things everyone talks about how it was in the old days; like how kids aren't easily entertained anymore because they're used to new TV and music and movies. I think it's that with me. I don't appreciate stuff anymore. I'm sorry if someone read this and got upset.
I didn't mean to.

It's all in the way I say what I don't mean, and mean what I don't. I need to speak of you and what is real.

The weekend has started and I'm in a pretty good mood. This week has been fairly nice. My mom is letting Kara come along with us to Kiawah Island this Spring Break. We go every year as a family, and I begged and begged for her to come this year. It's for a whole week and I didn't really want to be stuck up there without her.
But my mom said "yes" and I'm really excited. My grandparents' house is beautiful and I'm so excited to hang out with her there. I just have to bring all my grades up to at least a C, which isn't to hard because I only have 3 or so that are D's.

Prom:

These little kids yesterday yelled at me and Kara for holding hands in her neighborhood. Two of them just like, popped out from behind a car and yelled "EW! I saw you guys holding hands by the high school. You guys are so gross!" and I immedietly started screaming back at them. Maybe I was meaner then I should have, but I got really pissed when they were screaming at the high school too. They were all on this little bridge thing like "WOO! Go get her, that's riiight," and stuff. I mean, they couldn't have been older than 12 but it was really rude and uncalled for. So after they said the thing in her neighborhood, I was just screamed "FUCK YOU" and they screamed back "Ooo, good one" and I was like "How about I come over there and kick your ass! What are you, like 12?!" and then they said something else stupid and I just said "Yeah, don't talk to me until your balls drop, asshole!" and walked away, fuming. I wish they kept it going. I had so much to say to them. Anytime someone says something about me and Kara, I get really defensive. Like stupid black kids in the hall like "yo, iz dat two girlz?". UGH. Get over it!
I don't even care. I love Kara with every fiber of my being.

Right now I'm in a weird kind of mood. I'm not completely happy, but not sad. I don't really know what to do with myself. I feel like a waste of space. I feel like things are a routine and a cycle, and I want to break it. Summer was over too fast. Even though that sounds like lyrics to a pop-punk song, it's extremely true. When did this year fly by? I'm super impatient but the future freaks me out (more song lyrics). Time is killing me. I want summer to come...but I don't. I don't want my junior year to be over. I don't want to take the SAT's. I don't want to worry about my grades and college. I don't want my parents to give up on me. I want more time to bring my grades up and lose weight and actually enjoy things. I love my friends and my life, don't get me wrong. I just want to come home after a really, really good day and be like "Gosh, that was amazing". It seems like that doesn't happen too often anymore. I want a lot off stuff.
Like sleep.
So I'm going to get some.

Oh! I found this bed and I'm going to get it for my house when I'm older :D

G'Night :) <3

I'll take you to the moon; We'll fake it, we'll shake it, we'll move it all around.

Being that today was such a nice day, I thought it was time for a blog.
I just got back from the St. Patrick's Day parade. My parents aren't home, which is great, and I had such a fun time today. Definitely the best one I've been to. I thought last year's was really good, but I loved this one. A year ago during the parade, Kara and I had our first kiss. It was a really big deal. This year, I had all my friends around me. There was no confusion, no pressure to do anything, no drama, and the weather was absolutly perfect. I loved it a lot.
This whole week has been pretty nice. There were some rough spots, but I'm actually fine with it. I'm completely happy with my situation oustide of my home life. My family stuff still has kinks to work out, but things are a hell of a lot better when I have my friends to lean on. I've decided that I'm joining the Crew team next year. I'll get in shape and it will make my mom happy. She thinks I don't do anything with myself. I need to get a job soon too, but I have an Outback application that needs to be turned in. I hope I don't get too sucked up into it and lose time with my friends and stuff. I think everyone has to go through that at some point, but I just don't want to miss anything. I don't want something extraordinary to happen when I'm at work, I guess. I love the way things are right now but my parents are fed up with my laziness, as they should be to an extent. I'm about to turn 18 and I've never had a job. I just wish they wouldn't push it in the way they do.
Enough about that though, I'm way too happy to be thinking about that. I love my friends and I love my girlfriend, and I'm really just...happy right now.

I need to order my prom dress soon. I've decided I'm going, and I'm really, really excited.

I'm gonna end this though. I feel like my mind's bursting with things to talk about,
but I don't feel like writing them all down. I feel like some white pizza though.
So... I'm gonna go make some.

Stay here all night long, be strong, forget the world we're living in.

The weather is almost perfect outside, and I had a ridiculously good day at school (and afterwards :]). The weather feels like summer and it makes me want to go tanning. I'm going Friday though :D
I probaby shouldn't right much more because I have a ton of work to do. I just know that I love being home and I loved today. I know I'll love this week because I have some pretty neat-o plans. I hope I'm not wrong, but I'm sure I won't be. Thinks are good right now.

I have a Chemistry paper to write.
<3

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends, Mmm going to try with a little help from my friends

I haven't been very good at staying off the computer. I've been on almost every day since I posted my last blog.
That doesn't mean my opinion's changed about stuff. It's addictive and it's scary how easily I broke my determination. Oh well.

This week was really good. There were some rough parts, but all in all it was very good. Probably one of the best I've had in a while. I think my good mood started last week and carried on to this one, but it's hard to tell. I don't care though. I just like the state of mind I've been in for the past week, and the state of mind I am right now sitting here. I just got back from a good time with my friends; who I've come to realize are my best friends and I like them a lot.
School's been really lame lately. All my grades are up and I'm doing fine, but I have a ton of projects and papers due this month. We have no days off and Spring Break seems a long way away, but Kara's mom said something that kinda made me think today. She was like "Wow, you guys only have 3 months left of school", and I was thinking WOAH! We definitely do :) It's the first day of March right now, which is the 3rd month of the year, and I still remember New Year's like it was yesterday. Everything's flown by so fast, which means this school year will too (hopefully). I dunno, I just found it surprising because I never really thought about it. Like the way I've been putting off my Chemistry project because it wasn't due until March and that seemed like weeks away, but it's due 9 days from now and I haven't started yet.

I'm a happier person right now. I've let go of a lot of things, and I like the way I am and the way things have changed. Things are simpler and a lot more enjoyable. No time is ever wasted and nothing's really getting on my nerves anymore. Before, everything used to annoy me and I would get frustrated with everything. Now I just feel like smiling, as cheesy as that sounds. I'm just content. Let's hope it stays this way, but I really think it will. Stuff my mom says to me that would make me so upset before doesn't bother me. I just say "yeah, mom", and do what she tells me to because I don't feel like fighting. That's a really big deal for me. I stick up for myself and tell the truth. It's refreshing, and it's all managed to happen in the past 2-ish weeks.
:)
I love my girlfriend and my friends and Oscar. They're the best things that have happened to me.

I hope things stay like this for a long, long time. I feel so happy right now.