So I deleted my last post because it was so unbelievably stupid. It was just about how sad I was and how much I miss Kara. It was kinda pathetic, and I'm cool now.
Something I mentioned on there was about how my mom found my blog. She read it and decide to root through my purse and room and stuff 2 mornings in a row. I woke up both times though, and she was like "Oh, your sister is missing her jeans", and left. But I talked to her about it yesterday and this morning, and she said she was looking for a flask or something because I AM SUCH A DRINKER. She was referring to my Halloween post about how I had my first hangover and stuff, but HELLOOOO "first hangover". Just think about it. I'm not some crazy kid that drinks all the time.
And she found cigarettes in my purse. They weren't mine though, they were Nick Hottie Heitman's, and he gave them to me because he didn't want them anymore. I didn't smoke them though. I'm too lame and apparently I look like a little kid if I try to do it. Smoking is gross and turns your teeth yellow. There's no way I'm messing up my teeth.
Anyway, we talked it over and things are all good. I still miss Kara like crazy right now. It's the worst. I feel like I haven't seen her in forever, but she comes back in six days, which means that we've already made it through seven days. Today is my family's Christmas party though, and freaking 50 people are coming. That's a lot of people to entertain. Last year, I just hung around with Melanie and brought people their drinks. This year, Melanie isn't coming but my mom thinks my old friends Martha and Brianna are. I don't know though.
So what I'm saying is; the next two days are going to go by quickly because it's Christmas and we're having a party and stuff. So then it will only be 4 days until I see Kara. Then I have a date with my pal Timmy on the 27th and I'm suuuuper looking forward to that. Then I don't know what I'm going on the 28th, 29th, and 30th, but hopefully something fun.
This break hasn't been as awful as I've made it seem to be. Really the only things are missing Kara so much and getting in trouble with my mom. Other then that, I've liked all the people I got to chill with and I've had a good time. And this break isn't even over yet. I just can't wait until the 31st though, oh my gosh.
I need to go. People are gonna be here in 4 hours -_o
blehhhh.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
I miss you.
"To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you"
Ahh, I hate Incubus. This song was on my Windows Media Player and it made me cry :(
SKJGF;SDLJGFLKSDFAMSKMFASDF
My mom just got done lecturing me about how my life is a waste. This is the second time she's used that wording with me, and it gets me really upset. Like, how is my life a waste? Her saying that means that if I died no one would care. I don't make an impression on anybody. And the worst part is, it makes me think. What if that's true. I have Kara and Melanie. What else have I done? I don't do anything. I don't have this overflowing social life where people are just waiting to hang out with me. And my grades are terrible. And I don't do any clubs or sports. Maybe I could die and only 2 people would really be affected by it. I don't want to die because I love my life, I just wish I could live it in peace. It's Winter Break, so I thought school stuff wouldn't be talked about. But no, my girlfriend's away and my mom is bugging the shit out of me, so this is the worst I've felt in a long time.
The next 10 days are gonna be the longest ever. I'm dreading it, but I know things will be better when she gets back. I feel bad because maybe I put too much pressure on her or I get overly dependent on her, but she makes me so happy. I know she's the one thing that will brighten up my day, and my day really needs to be brightened up right now.
Melanie should call me soon. I want some pancakes.
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you"
Ahh, I hate Incubus. This song was on my Windows Media Player and it made me cry :(
SKJGF;SDLJGFLKSDFAMSKMFASDF
My mom just got done lecturing me about how my life is a waste. This is the second time she's used that wording with me, and it gets me really upset. Like, how is my life a waste? Her saying that means that if I died no one would care. I don't make an impression on anybody. And the worst part is, it makes me think. What if that's true. I have Kara and Melanie. What else have I done? I don't do anything. I don't have this overflowing social life where people are just waiting to hang out with me. And my grades are terrible. And I don't do any clubs or sports. Maybe I could die and only 2 people would really be affected by it. I don't want to die because I love my life, I just wish I could live it in peace. It's Winter Break, so I thought school stuff wouldn't be talked about. But no, my girlfriend's away and my mom is bugging the shit out of me, so this is the worst I've felt in a long time.
The next 10 days are gonna be the longest ever. I'm dreading it, but I know things will be better when she gets back. I feel bad because maybe I put too much pressure on her or I get overly dependent on her, but she makes me so happy. I know she's the one thing that will brighten up my day, and my day really needs to be brightened up right now.
Melanie should call me soon. I want some pancakes.
Friday, December 19, 2008
I'm so iconoclastic; I'm clastic! I only want you to think I'm fantastic.
So, it's the second day of winter break. Yesterday was Friday and the first day of break. Kara's in California and it sucks. She's visiting her dad and step-family, but I got to talk to her a little today on the phone. I miss her like crazy.
So Thursday after school was nice. My mom picked me up and I ran a few errands with her. At 5:30 though, I met up with Melanie and we chilled with Garrett Burke. We got some pizza from Mellow Mushroom and went shopping afterwards. We had to get outfits for our friend Lindsey's party that was yesterday. Anyway, that was fun because Melanie tried on shiny orange pants and stuff, and we both got cute things. I don't think Garrett likes shopping very much though.
After shopping, we dropped Garrett off and went back to Melanies. There I spent the night, which was cool. When we woke up, I talked to Kara a little bit on the phone, but then we decided to go to Arby's. We didn't actually go to Arby's though. We went to Panera Bread. It was yummy. I got soup.
We had to be home by 4 to get home for the party. So we got all ready and went to pick up Desirée and Anna. That was so fun, we got to scream Jonas Brothers songs and get lost on Bluffton Parkway. When we finally got to the party, not a lot of people were there, but lots showed up after a while. There was lots of dancing and food and stuff, and I had a lot of fun. My feet are killing me though and I smelled like cigarettes :/ It's disgusting.
I miss Kara a lot. It's harder then I thought it would be. I feel stupid because it's only the 3rd day, but she's gone for 12 days and these days have dragged on for what seems like forever. I've been wanting a good, solid Kara hug for the past 72 hours and I won't be able to get one for the next 249. It's stupid. I don't think I've ever wanted a hug this bad in my life.
I guess I should go. I need to shower. My mom dragged me to this Christmas party out in the middle of nowhere and I smell like 15 wet dogs because the lady we visited had 15 wet dogs. Ewww, urg.
This was a short one. I'll write more later.
So Thursday after school was nice. My mom picked me up and I ran a few errands with her. At 5:30 though, I met up with Melanie and we chilled with Garrett Burke. We got some pizza from Mellow Mushroom and went shopping afterwards. We had to get outfits for our friend Lindsey's party that was yesterday. Anyway, that was fun because Melanie tried on shiny orange pants and stuff, and we both got cute things. I don't think Garrett likes shopping very much though.
After shopping, we dropped Garrett off and went back to Melanies. There I spent the night, which was cool. When we woke up, I talked to Kara a little bit on the phone, but then we decided to go to Arby's. We didn't actually go to Arby's though. We went to Panera Bread. It was yummy. I got soup.
We had to be home by 4 to get home for the party. So we got all ready and went to pick up Desirée and Anna. That was so fun, we got to scream Jonas Brothers songs and get lost on Bluffton Parkway. When we finally got to the party, not a lot of people were there, but lots showed up after a while. There was lots of dancing and food and stuff, and I had a lot of fun. My feet are killing me though and I smelled like cigarettes :/ It's disgusting.
I miss Kara a lot. It's harder then I thought it would be. I feel stupid because it's only the 3rd day, but she's gone for 12 days and these days have dragged on for what seems like forever. I've been wanting a good, solid Kara hug for the past 72 hours and I won't be able to get one for the next 249. It's stupid. I don't think I've ever wanted a hug this bad in my life.
I guess I should go. I need to shower. My mom dragged me to this Christmas party out in the middle of nowhere and I smell like 15 wet dogs because the lady we visited had 15 wet dogs. Ewww, urg.
This was a short one. I'll write more later.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Lullabies, look in your eyes, run around the same old town.
Well, it's been a really long time since I've blogged. So much has happened. I got back from New York a week ago, but it seems like it's been months. The Sunday I got back, Kara and Melanie were planning to take me out to dinner but my parents said "no" and it was this whole big thing. It was disappointing because I had missed those girls all week, but I still got to spend Monday after school with them. That was fun. We went to Kroger to grocery shop. It was definitely more exciting then it sounds.
Tuesday was the worst day ever. I got grounded for an e-mail my Chemistry teacher sent to my parents. I guess I got a 42 on the last test. The class average on the test was a 50 though, so I used that as a bargaining chip to go out this weekend. I'm so so glad my parents let me, because yesterday was really fun. I spent the night at Melanie's on Friday because my mom had her entire Girl Scout troop spend the night. There was no way I was staying there with a ton of little 12 year olds screaming through my house.
Anyway, I went to Melanie's and we made spaghetti. It was undercooked but it's all good. We also watched The Clique, which is a terrible movie about a bunch of spoiled 7th graders. I liked it. When we woke up in the morning, my mom wanted me to come home, shower, and "check in" before I went out for the day. It was kinda pointless, but it only took an hour or so before I was out of the house again. From there, Melanie and I picked up Kara and we went to Main Street. My mom wanted me to stop by there because I guess this artist lady was going portraits for $50 at some studio. We waited around there for about an hour for her to get it done. That was the lamest part of the day.
After that we made our way to Bluffton to pick up our friend Aaron. He wanted to try these wings he heard about at this restaurant out in Beaufort. Apparently there so hot, you have to sign a waver just to get them. It took almost an hour to get there and we didn't even get the hot wings. We got to the place, and it took forever to get served, and it seems like they kept giving us excuses on why we couldn't get them. So we didn't. We just got french fries and this lemon thing and left for the island again.
After we dropped off Aaron, we went to Mr. Garrett Burke's house to pick him up. Oh, he is too much fun. We picked up his adorable girlfriend Anna too, and we went to Giuseppe's for dinner. We ate pizza and stuff, but didn't really know what to do afterwards. We decided on going to T-J Max and trying on ridiculous outfits. That was a ton of fun. Kara and Garrett didn't join us though because they're party poopers.
After that, we went to Melanie's house. There, we played hide and seek and Wii, and I got to cuddle with Kara on Melanie's couch. Gage came over after a while, which was cool. I had to leave at 10:30, and by then everyone else had gone home too. When Melanie got back from driving Kara home, she came over and spent the night. We watched Lords of Dogtown and Degrassi, and ate Scooby Doo Mac n'Cheese.
It was a fun time and I'm so glad my parents let me out of the house. Oh, and I got my braces off on Wednesday :) I'm so happy. I'm just happy in general. I don't want to get grounded ever again. I seriously need to buckle down with my schoolwork.
For now though, I just love my friends. I think this next week should be really good.
Knock on wood.
Christmas is in 18 days, but Kara is leaving before that. I'm gonna miss her, but after she get's back,
neither of us should be going anywhere for a while. I hate missing her when one of us leaves for vacation. We'll always be here for each other though, I know that.
I want an I-pod and a trampoline for Christmas.
And my family's having a party on Christmas Eve. Anyone's invited. I'm sure it will be like last year, but I just hope Melanie's dad doesn't have sex on my bathroom counter again.
I'm gonna go eat :) <3
Tuesday was the worst day ever. I got grounded for an e-mail my Chemistry teacher sent to my parents. I guess I got a 42 on the last test. The class average on the test was a 50 though, so I used that as a bargaining chip to go out this weekend. I'm so so glad my parents let me, because yesterday was really fun. I spent the night at Melanie's on Friday because my mom had her entire Girl Scout troop spend the night. There was no way I was staying there with a ton of little 12 year olds screaming through my house.
Anyway, I went to Melanie's and we made spaghetti. It was undercooked but it's all good. We also watched The Clique, which is a terrible movie about a bunch of spoiled 7th graders. I liked it. When we woke up in the morning, my mom wanted me to come home, shower, and "check in" before I went out for the day. It was kinda pointless, but it only took an hour or so before I was out of the house again. From there, Melanie and I picked up Kara and we went to Main Street. My mom wanted me to stop by there because I guess this artist lady was going portraits for $50 at some studio. We waited around there for about an hour for her to get it done. That was the lamest part of the day.
After that we made our way to Bluffton to pick up our friend Aaron. He wanted to try these wings he heard about at this restaurant out in Beaufort. Apparently there so hot, you have to sign a waver just to get them. It took almost an hour to get there and we didn't even get the hot wings. We got to the place, and it took forever to get served, and it seems like they kept giving us excuses on why we couldn't get them. So we didn't. We just got french fries and this lemon thing and left for the island again.
After we dropped off Aaron, we went to Mr. Garrett Burke's house to pick him up. Oh, he is too much fun. We picked up his adorable girlfriend Anna too, and we went to Giuseppe's for dinner. We ate pizza and stuff, but didn't really know what to do afterwards. We decided on going to T-J Max and trying on ridiculous outfits. That was a ton of fun. Kara and Garrett didn't join us though because they're party poopers.
After that, we went to Melanie's house. There, we played hide and seek and Wii, and I got to cuddle with Kara on Melanie's couch. Gage came over after a while, which was cool. I had to leave at 10:30, and by then everyone else had gone home too. When Melanie got back from driving Kara home, she came over and spent the night. We watched Lords of Dogtown and Degrassi, and ate Scooby Doo Mac n'Cheese.
It was a fun time and I'm so glad my parents let me out of the house. Oh, and I got my braces off on Wednesday :) I'm so happy. I'm just happy in general. I don't want to get grounded ever again. I seriously need to buckle down with my schoolwork.
For now though, I just love my friends. I think this next week should be really good.
Knock on wood.
Christmas is in 18 days, but Kara is leaving before that. I'm gonna miss her, but after she get's back,
neither of us should be going anywhere for a while. I hate missing her when one of us leaves for vacation. We'll always be here for each other though, I know that.
I want an I-pod and a trampoline for Christmas.
And my family's having a party on Christmas Eve. Anyone's invited. I'm sure it will be like last year, but I just hope Melanie's dad doesn't have sex on my bathroom counter again.
I'm gonna go eat :) <3
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