Where is Saipan?

I just looked up things to do in AmeriCorps when I finally graduate high school this time next year. And Saipan is one of the places I have the option to be stationed. I have no idea where that is though.
I'll be going to CofC though for a year first, to wait for my girlfriend to get done with high school. I'm perfectly okay with that. I've always wanted to live in Charleston. It's my favorite place in the "south". I don't know if Florida is considered the real "south" though. I know it's south on the map, but is it really considered the "south"? I don't know...
The last couple days have been rough. I've been doubting myself a lot lately. Not anyone else, just me. I don't think I'm who I want to be, and I've gone too long being this person and it's too late to change. I'll get over it. I just... I don't know.

I miss the random trips to Beaufort, Barnes and Noble, La Ha, Burger King, and wherever else we felt like going to. I miss webcam videos and epic youtube episodes. I miss gossiping and having someone else to talk to. I miss blasting music and speeding down the road with all the windows down. I miss steering from the passenger's seat when the driver was texting. I miss tanning by the pool. I miss laughing my ass off. I miss not being able to sleep because the TV was still on The N and the fan was going. I miss looking through Itunes and making myself a CD because you have the best taste in music. I miss borrowing your clothes because you have the best taste in that too.
And I can't help but thinking that what happened wouldn't have if I were there. But maybe that's just because I'm full of myself.

I just hope you're happy.
Both of you.

I said who are you? Don't matter who you are. So we dance all night and dance all day, I say.

What a great junior year. I'm very satisfied with it. I got my permit, a job, my grades were alright. I'm not a total failure. I still have my amazing girlfriend. Things are good. I'm living.
Summer has been great. I wish I didn't have to work so much, but I'm earning money and my social life isn't totally dead, so I'm happy. I think I might have a sunburn though which sucks. I wish Melanie would invite me over to tan at her house like we did last summer. I haven't spoken to her in weeks. (If you're reading this, call me!)
I miss her.

I don't know what else to write about, but this was just an update. I'm excited to see what the rest of the summer holds.
:)

I want to go to heaven for the weather, but hell for the company.

I'm so tired I can't sleep, and it sucks. My mom wanted to smell my breath when I got home. My dad's drunk off his ass. Literally. I have to work tomorrow.
I have really good friends. There's only a handful of them nowadays, but I'm alright. Everyone else I don't even consider a friend. They're really nothing to me anymore. The days are long and it's really hot outside. Almost unbearable.
I know something else that's getting close to unbearable. I'm not doing it next weekend.

I'm going to force myself to sleep now.