And I keep drinkin' coffee cause my thoughts stay clear when things start to spin.

Well, it's been an interesting past couple of days. The flag thing is pretty much over. My mom and dad are talking again, and my mom's not mad at me for it anymore. I forgot my homework for Chemisty on Tuesday though, so I'm grounded for that. I really really hate being grounded. I hate that my parents have that kind of control over me. I missed one homework assignment and next thing you know, I'm stuck at home, forced to do everything my mom says. Now I remember why I hate being home so much. I'm usually out every weekend, so this is the first time I've been home in a while. Whatever. I'm just jealous of everyone who's out doing something right now. I want to be out there with them.

I had a nice talk with my best friend yesterday about what being "okay" really means. She was saying how people can act like nothing's bothering them, but nothing can ever really be completely okay. Like, how do you know when everything is really "okay"? Is it when you're completely, 100% happy with everything in your life? Is that even possible? I've realized that now more then ever. People bottle up stuff and never talk about their problems, but then it just gets worse and worse. Things can be "okay" in different ways though. Like, if you stop being friends with someone or something, it might not seem "okay", but it might turn out to be. You might've stopped being friends with that person because they're not as good of a friend as you thought. I know that good things always come out of bad situations, it just takes time and effort. I just wish people wouldn't let it just sit there and build up though. I know that's easier said then done, but I hope they know that I'm always here to talk to. If something isn't okay, I know I like talking about it with other people. Maybe it's not what anyone else likes to do, but letting it sit there and get bigger and bigger doesn't do a damn thing. I want people to count on me and stuff. Or I just want them to cheer up and try to see the good in things again.

I've been having this weird feeling lately, like something bad is about to happen. I get it sometimes when drama breaks out or...I don't know. It's a sinking feeling like you're on the edge of tears and your head feels heavy, and you don't feel like thinking about anything. I just hope it's nothing too disastrous, but maybe it's just me. I just don't feel good.

Kara's over her cold, which is good. I've had Footloose practice every day since it started, and it's cool because I usually get to see Kara before and after. I just love spending time with her so much. Someone asked me today if we're gonna get married :P I thought that was funny. We had our 8 month anniversary last Tuesday and she made me a really good CD. I made her one too, and she said she liked it.
I know it's really early, but I want to go to prom this year,
and I already have my dress picked out.

I don't know yet though, so I might change my mind. I'm such a loser when it comes to planning big things. I always figure it out wayyy ahead of time. I guess I need to see what my date is wearing to decide (:

Oh, and apparently Travis Barker and DJ AM were in a fatal plane crash in South Carolina, and they're both in critical condition.
How sad :(

The weather is soooo nice outside, so I think I'm gonna go do something besides sit on the computer.
Melanie's supposed to be over in a couple minutes. I'll write more later!