I miss you.

"To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you"

Ahh, I hate Incubus. This song was on my Windows Media Player and it made me cry :(
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My mom just got done lecturing me about how my life is a waste. This is the second time she's used that wording with me, and it gets me really upset. Like, how is my life a waste? Her saying that means that if I died no one would care. I don't make an impression on anybody. And the worst part is, it makes me think. What if that's true. I have Kara and Melanie. What else have I done? I don't do anything. I don't have this overflowing social life where people are just waiting to hang out with me. And my grades are terrible. And I don't do any clubs or sports. Maybe I could die and only 2 people would really be affected by it. I don't want to die because I love my life, I just wish I could live it in peace. It's Winter Break, so I thought school stuff wouldn't be talked about. But no, my girlfriend's away and my mom is bugging the shit out of me, so this is the worst I've felt in a long time.
The next 10 days are gonna be the longest ever. I'm dreading it, but I know things will be better when she gets back. I feel bad because maybe I put too much pressure on her or I get overly dependent on her, but she makes me so happy. I know she's the one thing that will brighten up my day, and my day really needs to be brightened up right now.

Melanie should call me soon. I want some pancakes.